Supernatural 2x1, again
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I was struck by the parallel between John and Dean here: John bargaining with the demon while Dean tries to bargain with Death (I think I'll just give in go ahead and name her; easier than the whole Reaper confusion issue). Both of them, in the end, choosing to give up their lives to avoid causing harm to the people near them. At least, that's what I think Dean was going to do. he wouldn't become what he hunted: that's just not what Dean would do.
I'm still not doing well with John's death; I wasn't watching only for John, but he was a big part of my experience as a fan -- look at the fic I've written, and it's pretty much all about John, and, you know, fanfic is what I do. That's my fannish participation thing. But JDM knocked it out of the park, and this was how John had to die, and I really, really want to be able to be OK with it, because it was the best death he was going to get.
Somewhere in me there's a post on how John is such a Roman, and the boys just aren't. This isn't that post.
I have been mocking John a lot, especially for his dumb plans, but this episode redeemed that for me, because we got to see John the father and John the hunter all at once, in his scenes with the Demon. And I loved how confident he was, how you could see it in his face and his voice 9and what a contrast to the John of Salvation and Devil's Trap), and that he was the one the Demon wanted out of the way, not Dean. And of course in addition to his final speech ot Dean, the act of letting the Demon take him is the greatest evidence John can give of his faith in Dean -- because he gave up his life and his chance of getting revenge to keep Dean alive, because he knows that Dean can take care of Sam and kill the Demon too. I don't know if Dean will ever figure that out, what that meant.
I said once, somewhere that what Dean needs from John is some kind of incontestable proof that John loves him and is proud of him, and then for John to die; I don't know if this was enough for Dean, what happened here.
I sometimes think it might be; I mean, I don't think that at the end John laid a burden on Dean that Dean hadn't already taken on, of his own free will. A lot depends on what John whispered to him, that left Dean looking like that: the truth about the deal he'd made? what he knew about Sam? some other thing? Something he didn't want the Demon to hear?
I love that everything I thought was a lie was the truth -- that he was summoning the Demon for Dean's sake, and that he wasn't going to hunt it. That even for John, some things matter more than the hunt, more than revenge. And I think that it's no surprise that he chose to give up his life for Dean's, because all that he could see, I think, was the harm he'd done, Sam's anger and Dean's broken body and nothing to show for all that sorrow. So he did the only thing he could do, fixed the only thing he could fix. I wonder when, exactly, he decided to go through with it, and how soon he knew that he wasn't going to get out alive; the irony that he was almost certainly preparing himself to die, while he sat by Dean's bed and Dean's spirit railed at him, appeals to me.
I love that John let Sam's prejudices distract him, to keep Sam from figuring out what he was really doing. And of course at the end it really is too late to fix that, even though he tries. I think in some ways Sam is going to be more wrecked by Dean, in the short term, because he was still angry when he left that room, wasn't he? And that wasn't something John could fix, not without letting Sam know what he'd done. And Sam made his choice, damn it, that he'd do whatever it took to keep his family alive -- and then John took that choice away from him.
I love how smart John was, how much he knew. I may need to rethink the character, a little, because the one thing I've always thought about John is that his reactions are determined by the short-term, not the long-term, so that he tends to reel from one crisis to the next; but this John has clearly been capable of holding things back, waiting and planning. Not in making the deal, which is another short-term fix, but in whatever the thing with Sam is, that mystery. And is that what he told Dean? It would depend what the secret is, I think.
Oh, John. Oh, John. You did what it took; you did good.
I'm still not handling this all that well.
Later on, I'll post a bit of Egyptian poetry; it's at the office, and I'm typing this at home.
I was struck by the parallel between John and Dean here: John bargaining with the demon while Dean tries to bargain with Death (I think I'll just give in go ahead and name her; easier than the whole Reaper confusion issue). Both of them, in the end, choosing to give up their lives to avoid causing harm to the people near them. At least, that's what I think Dean was going to do. he wouldn't become what he hunted: that's just not what Dean would do.
I'm still not doing well with John's death; I wasn't watching only for John, but he was a big part of my experience as a fan -- look at the fic I've written, and it's pretty much all about John, and, you know, fanfic is what I do. That's my fannish participation thing. But JDM knocked it out of the park, and this was how John had to die, and I really, really want to be able to be OK with it, because it was the best death he was going to get.
Somewhere in me there's a post on how John is such a Roman, and the boys just aren't. This isn't that post.
I have been mocking John a lot, especially for his dumb plans, but this episode redeemed that for me, because we got to see John the father and John the hunter all at once, in his scenes with the Demon. And I loved how confident he was, how you could see it in his face and his voice 9and what a contrast to the John of Salvation and Devil's Trap), and that he was the one the Demon wanted out of the way, not Dean. And of course in addition to his final speech ot Dean, the act of letting the Demon take him is the greatest evidence John can give of his faith in Dean -- because he gave up his life and his chance of getting revenge to keep Dean alive, because he knows that Dean can take care of Sam and kill the Demon too. I don't know if Dean will ever figure that out, what that meant.
I said once, somewhere that what Dean needs from John is some kind of incontestable proof that John loves him and is proud of him, and then for John to die; I don't know if this was enough for Dean, what happened here.
I sometimes think it might be; I mean, I don't think that at the end John laid a burden on Dean that Dean hadn't already taken on, of his own free will. A lot depends on what John whispered to him, that left Dean looking like that: the truth about the deal he'd made? what he knew about Sam? some other thing? Something he didn't want the Demon to hear?
I love that everything I thought was a lie was the truth -- that he was summoning the Demon for Dean's sake, and that he wasn't going to hunt it. That even for John, some things matter more than the hunt, more than revenge. And I think that it's no surprise that he chose to give up his life for Dean's, because all that he could see, I think, was the harm he'd done, Sam's anger and Dean's broken body and nothing to show for all that sorrow. So he did the only thing he could do, fixed the only thing he could fix. I wonder when, exactly, he decided to go through with it, and how soon he knew that he wasn't going to get out alive; the irony that he was almost certainly preparing himself to die, while he sat by Dean's bed and Dean's spirit railed at him, appeals to me.
I love that John let Sam's prejudices distract him, to keep Sam from figuring out what he was really doing. And of course at the end it really is too late to fix that, even though he tries. I think in some ways Sam is going to be more wrecked by Dean, in the short term, because he was still angry when he left that room, wasn't he? And that wasn't something John could fix, not without letting Sam know what he'd done. And Sam made his choice, damn it, that he'd do whatever it took to keep his family alive -- and then John took that choice away from him.
I love how smart John was, how much he knew. I may need to rethink the character, a little, because the one thing I've always thought about John is that his reactions are determined by the short-term, not the long-term, so that he tends to reel from one crisis to the next; but this John has clearly been capable of holding things back, waiting and planning. Not in making the deal, which is another short-term fix, but in whatever the thing with Sam is, that mystery. And is that what he told Dean? It would depend what the secret is, I think.
Oh, John. Oh, John. You did what it took; you did good.
I'm still not handling this all that well.
Later on, I'll post a bit of Egyptian poetry; it's at the office, and I'm typing this at home.
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Date: 2006-10-02 12:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-10-03 12:17 am (UTC)But I did think it was a lovely episode with an absolutely pitch perfect playing out of the relationships at the top of the emotional scale. I have this terrible thought, though, that dad could have prepared for a temporary death only to have his sons make it permanent with their own perfectly well meant rituals to protect him from being reanimated by demons. Oops.
But then, I am a truly sick puppy.
Of course, that could be what he told Dean. "Dig me up--don't make me scramble out of the grave on my own like poor Buffy had to do!" Which, if I was Dean, would seriously annoy me. Because it really was a hairbrained scheme with more chance of disaster than success.
And, it would annoy ME, because I thought he loved his son enough to die for him. Would be disappointing to discover it was just, "Loved his son enough to try to trick a demon, which he does pretty much every day."
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Date: 2006-10-03 12:38 am (UTC)Well, I'm clearly pretty sick as well, because that really cracked me up, too. oops! Although presumably that would be what he told them -- for god's sakes, don't burn the body!
But I sincerely doubt we'll see any kind of reanimation. Sincerely.
And, it would annoy ME, because I thought he loved his son enough to die for him. Would be disappointing to discover it was just, "Loved his son enough to try to trick a demon, which he does pretty much every day."
Whereas I think this scenario has a lot of dramatic possibility, because presumably the boys would be pretty damn pissed off about it once they put all the pieces together. And then they really would have something to fight about! And I like the idea of John multi-tasking, here.
Not convinced that any of this will happen, of course. But right now I'm enjoying the shady banks of Denial.