The Tyranny of Socks

True story: I thought this was a 9-episode season, and got to the end of the most recent episode and said, well, that was all a bit weak, as endings go. Luckily I have Spartacus watching with me to correct these issues.

( a few thoughts, not all positive )

I don't know, maybe I am being grumpy and picky. I like the bones of the thing more than the flesh, maybe. I hope the last three episodes pull it together for me.

I have seen the new Star Wars movie! And I will put my spoilers ( under the cut )

... was my actual first fandom, when I was in high school and just finding out what fandom was. I would go to Creation Cons back in the 80s, and sometimes there would be some zines for sale under the table in the dealers' room. Oh, the epic Mary Sue romances, and novel-length stories about the fall of Anakin Skywalker! The plotty fics about that bounty hunter Han ran into on Ord Mantell! And of course this was before there was any hint of the EU or the prequel trilogy, so there was so much blank space to fill in. In fact I never really took to the EU, and none of the prequel trilogy characters or relationship sreally spoke to me, and the whole thing became really sprawling, so by the time I got back into fandom after a long gafiation, I considered myself a SW fan, but not fannish about it.

And I learned some useful lessons, which stood me in good stead when my next fandom turned out to be the X-Files. But apparently not letting hope spring eternal was not one of them, because the trailer is out! And I am not going to get to see the movie until January, unless I go to see it dubbed into Spanish while in Mexico. Which I have not entirely ruled out.

( and now that I've seen the trailer I really can't wait to find out some spoilery things )

But I really have to remind myself to stop trying to make sense of all this, because it is a Star Wars movie, and it is going to break my heart and disappoint me. But I don't want it to! I want it to be great! I want a new high point to enjoy -- like the one in the fight with Jabba, when Luke jumps off the landspeeder, somersaults, and catches the lightsaber that R2D2 just shot out to him. I was in the theater for ROTJ on opening day, for an afternoon showing, and the whole theater gasped and cheered, all together. I want my Star Wars feeling back.

What I mean, is that I have a lot of emotion invested in all this Star Wars stuff, and a history of disappointment and fear. I just want it to be good, OK?