FIC: Double Vision (SCC, Sarah Connor, PG)

[vaznetti]

Like others on my friends list, I seem to be toying with a new fandom. So here's a character study, I suppose, for Sarah Connor.

Double Vision
by Vanzetti
PG, Sarah Connor, no spoilers beyond the concept
Thanks to hossgal for beta-reading
Summary: Sarah has not always found weapons beautiful.


Sarah has not always found weapons beautiful. She can remember the early days, grit in her eyes, bones aching and hands blistered and her teachers shouting again and do it right, this time, and for fuck's sake, she was just a waitress, not some kind of hero. But there was John, and she didn't have time to care that she was tired, or couldn't get it right: she had to.

So she did.

Somewhere along the way the guns became reassurance, clean and skin-warmed and predictable: a weapon does what you make it do.

This machine, the one she watches now, is the same. It has its orders, and it will obey them. Not her orders, not her son's, but that other person, the other John Connor. The envelope of flesh, the camouflage of skin and hair can't conceal the real purpose of those smooth arms and long legs, that unnatural, dangerous grace. But then it lifts its head and smiles, shakes the box of Cheerios to see if they need more, takes the garbage out to the curb, teases John out of a sulk, like the girl she pretends to be -- it pretends, Sarah tries to remember that. A weapon, not a girl. A weapon can become familiar, even dear from use. Sarah has learned to care for her weapons -- memory of hot dust and slow vowels, take care of it and it'll take care of you -- but she does not want to love them.

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Comments

[cofax7]

but she does not want to love them.

Oh, very good. The day she realizes she does? Well, as Jayne Cobb says, that'll be an interesting day.

[usagiko.livejournal.com]

Points for Firefly reference! [cheers]

Anyway, I really LOVED this fic. I think I need to write more weapon/Sarah fic in the future myself. A+, would touch myself inappropriately read again, a credit to fandom.

[vaznetti]

Thank you!

And I think there will be more Sarah, and Sarah and Cameron, in my writing future as well.

[usagiko.livejournal.com]

Oh, definitely. So much slashy possibilites. :3

[vaznetti]

Thank you!

Yes, I think she will, and it will be interesting indeed.

[voleuse.livejournal.com]

Oooh, I like this.

[vaznetti]

Thank you -- and thank you for the recommendation!

[rez-lo.livejournal.com]

Lovely. I suspect it's going to take a machine, and this one in particular, to prove to Sarah that she really is human. I really like that it's herself she's worried about here and not John.

[vaznetti]

I hadn't even thought of the lack of focus on John; I mean, John is at the root of it all, but she's also aware of who she is, or rather, that there's a problem in defining who she is and what she's become.

And thank you!

[groovekittie.livejournal.com]

That was goooooooooooooood! I hope you write more for this fledgling fandom as that was excellent!

[vaznetti]

Thank you! I hope I get inspired to write more too!

[thepouncer.livejournal.com]

Oh, Sarah!

::loves::

[vaznetti]

Thanks!

[midnightsjane.livejournal.com]

Great character piece. Loved it, as I love this show. I hope it lasts a long time.
Fabulous icon, BTW.

[vaznetti]

Thank you!

I hope the show has a good long run, too.

[minim_calibre]

\o/

This is me, doing the dance of joy.

[vaznetti]

::curtsies::

I'm very pleased to see that!

[alixtii.livejournal.com]

All of this is true, I suspect, and quite eloquently articulated here.

[vaznetti]

Thank you -- I'm glad it seemed right to you.

[lenadances.livejournal.com]

But there was John, and she didn't have time to care that she was tired, or couldn't get it right: she had to.

::loves::

Okay, now I have to watch this show.

[vaznetti]

It's a great show! I think everyone should watch it.

And thanks for trying the story anyway!

[hossgal.livejournal.com]

WOOT! Like I said, I really love that line about fearing to learn to love the weapons. Here there be dragons

And the story still clings to Sarah's *ordinariness*, which I think is a vital part of the character.

- hg

[vaznetti]

Thanks for your help with it!

I think Sarah's original ordinariness is such an important part of her character, even now -- that she sees herself as having become something very different. And that John is the special one, and she isn't -- she does what she has to do, but I don't think she sees herself as the hero of the story. (Although I think John sees her that way.)

[raincitygirl.livejournal.com]

Oh, nicely done.

[vaznetti]

Thank you!

[fialka.livejournal.com]

::gasp::

You're writing SCCfic? Oh, how very very splendid! I love this show already far too much.

[vaznetti]

I do seem to be writing SCC, and I'm glad you liked it! (I really hope this show sticks around -- I am so fond of it!)

[monanotlisa.livejournal.com]

This is STUNNING. Wow. ::memorises to rec::

[monanotlisa.livejournal.com]

How did I miss you writing TSCC? *flail* Oh, right: tunnel vision on my part for my shows.

[vaznetti]

Thank you! I'm so glad that you liked it!

[scarletumbrella.livejournal.com]

Ooh wow, great insight into Sarah's attitude toward Cameron. Very nice. :)

[vaznetti]

Thank you! I'm glad that you liked it! (And sorry for the late reply to your feedback.)

[scarletumbrella.livejournal.com]

Haha no problem - sorry for the late comment on your fic! I'm catching up... ~_^

[vaznetti]

Aw! there's no such thing as late feedback! *g*

[twasadark.livejournal.com]

Nice job on this little bit - it manages to pack a lot of punch in so few words. I wonder if you might allow me to record this for the amplificathon that's currently going on? I would link to the text and encourage comments for you. Also, I'd definitely send you the link to the finished product when I'm done.

I have a bunch of podfics at http://twasadark.googlepages.com/audiofic if you'd like to hear a sample of my work.

Hope to hear from you!

[vaznetti]

Hi! first of all, thank you for the feedback. I'm glad you liked the story.

And yes, you may record it -- I went to hear some of your work and really liked it. Thank you for considering the story!

[twasadark.livejournal.com]

Yay!! Thanks so much! I'll likely have it up in the next couple of days ... :-)

[twasadark.livejournal.com]

Okay, hon. Here's your podfic: http://community.livejournal.com/amplificathon/65311.html

Hope you like it! Anyhow, feel free to pimp this far and wide. And wide and far. :-)

Thanks for letting me record it!