Dean and feeling tired...he's been hunting for four years alongside John. Loses John, finds Sam again, loses John terminally, loses Sam terminally, deals away his life for his brother. Yep, I'd be tired too. I was thinking, looking at him playing with matches throwing the matches in the ex-demons' grave...how much grave-digging and corpses' burning one has to do before his will to live is consumed? Just the visuals, the smell, the frequent contact with decaying bodies, scary things that go bump in the night...how much horror one can withstand before caving in?
Yes, this makes sense. And I saw elsewhere the suggestion that Dean's wish in "What is etc." wasn't for Sam to be safe or his mother to be alive, but for him not to be hunting. It is an exhausting life -- physically and emotionally, and I guess Dean feels that so long as he's living he can't stop, especially not now, with hundreds of demons roaming the countryside. Death starts to seem like the easier option.
And yet... he knows damn well how he felt after John sacrificed his life for him, and it wasn't like John wasn't worn out with the struggle, too, no matter how tempered he'd been. The events of Devil's Trap were his limit.
Your issues and my issues with regard to the larger fannish dynamics are the same, I think. Although I am also allergic to the incest -- but yes. Could we have a moratorium on John bashing, at least? The man's dead and not coming back -- people who don't like the character can go ahead and ignore him.
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Date: 2007-10-05 01:11 pm (UTC)Yes, this makes sense. And I saw elsewhere the suggestion that Dean's wish in "What is etc." wasn't for Sam to be safe or his mother to be alive, but for him not to be hunting. It is an exhausting life -- physically and emotionally, and I guess Dean feels that so long as he's living he can't stop, especially not now, with hundreds of demons roaming the countryside. Death starts to seem like the easier option.
And yet... he knows damn well how he felt after John sacrificed his life for him, and it wasn't like John wasn't worn out with the struggle, too, no matter how tempered he'd been. The events of Devil's Trap were his limit.
Your issues and my issues with regard to the larger fannish dynamics are the same, I think. Although I am also allergic to the incest -- but yes. Could we have a moratorium on John bashing, at least? The man's dead and not coming back -- people who don't like the character can go ahead and ignore him.