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[vaznetti]

Today's update: still stressed out. I was rather hoping that getting my period would mean the end of that about-to-burst-into-tears feeling. No such luck.

I feel like I'm blowing off this interview, which is a shame, since I really want the job, but I just don't know what to do. I don't have the energy to stay up all night working on this lecture and still do my teaching tomorrow, and I'm starting to resent being asked to write it anyway. I'll have an outline, but I'm not great at talking from an outline. I guess I'll have to work all day Saturday after all, which I was sort of hoping not to have to do, since it will mean that I won't have any days off between now and February 21st (although I might be able to squeak in February 14th).

But anyway, I'm wasting time writing this. I feel the need to apologize for doing so, too.

Comments

[ms-pie.livejournal.com]

Don't apologize babe. If I can offer a bit of advice... I've found that when I reach my "limit" -- a key sign is that I feel the need to burst into tears -- it is time to just take an hour for myself and breathe... And then to get a good night's sleep. You'll be more productive for it...

*hugs*

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[vaznetti]

I'm going to try to work for another hour or so, and then I'll go home. I've been trying to take breaks, but they don't really seem to be doing much--and then I feel guilt for not getting enough done. It's some kind of catch-22.

[k2daisy.livejournal.com]

*hugs Vanzetti*

It'll get better, eventually. Hang in there!

[cassandre.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh, you poor thing. {{{{{vanzetti}}}}}

First: get some sleep. You will be fine. You will be GREAT. People will think that it's enormously impressive if you talk from an outline, and will follow your talk more easily (even if you aren't doing it "well" by your own standards).

And I can't believe that you have no days off between now and Feb. 21st. That is just incredible. If I were you, I would pick out one or two days of your classes and cancel them. Honestly. Between the teaching and the interviews, the interviews are more important. I have canceled classes before -- in a cold, premeditated fashion, by deciding the day before that I absolutely had to have the day off, and then phoning the secretary at the last minute to say that I was sick. While I'm not proud of these minor deceptions, I can attest with confidence that the world didn't come to an end when I didn't show up to teach my classes. And job interviews constitute one hell of a good excuse. You shouldn't even feel guilty about it!

[spican.livejournal.com]

Poor you! {{{{{Vanzetti}}}}} That is really a killer schedule, no wonder you're feeling out of balance.

I think Cassandre makes a good suggestion above, about doing a tactical cancellation of a day or two of teaching. It seems a very minor deception compared to the good the extra time can do you right now.

I'll be sending super-strength positive vibes your way for the interview.

[dagnylilytable.livejournal.com]

I've sent hugs already, but I can definitely promise you that your students will not be suffering in their minds from a day off from class if you need to take one. ;) Heck, some of them could be fannish like me and have Very Important Interview Memes to do.

[greenelephant.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to add my nods of agreement with cassandre. A day off from teaching can be made up later in the semester, if necessary, once interview season is over. More importantly, it's not worth going completely insane.
As far as the lecture goes for your interview, remember that you've done this many times before, with great success, and that the search committee already knows and likes what they've seen, or they wouldn't be bringing you to campus. So they *want* to see you do well, and won't be looking for any imperfections that you might see in your performance.
I'll be sending good interview thoughts your way (esp. since it seems a good way for me to keep up my own procrastination :-) )

[fillyjonk.livejournal.com]

Oh, golly. Your schedule and absence from lj in the past couple of days (since I've been checking in) sounds truly horrific. I don't know that I'll b able to keep myself from calling you all the way until Feb 21, but it souds as if I should be sure to time it not inconveniently. Is there such a thing as a non-inconvenient call for you these days? My fingers are all crossed, and as they say back in the old country, 'in bocca al lupo.'