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SPN 2x22 AHBL part 2, again
My "real" comments on the episode are here; under the cut is just emotional stuff, not analysis.
The thing is, I really wanted John back. Really. And I knew it wasn't going to happen, because JDM isn't an idiot and has his career to think of, but I wanted John back, with his sons, living his life. And so it was a wonderful episode, and I loved it, but it also left me feeling sad and empty. Because I wanted something the show was never going to give me -- something the show couldn't give me.
And it was the ending the character needed -- but the fangirl in me is still kicking and screaming and shouting "No!" like a toddler having a temper tantrum.
So in my fantasy world... well I don't know. At least, in my fantasy world, he could stay a little longer.
The thing is, I really wanted John back. Really. And I knew it wasn't going to happen, because JDM isn't an idiot and has his career to think of, but I wanted John back, with his sons, living his life. And so it was a wonderful episode, and I loved it, but it also left me feeling sad and empty. Because I wanted something the show was never going to give me -- something the show couldn't give me.
And it was the ending the character needed -- but the fangirl in me is still kicking and screaming and shouting "No!" like a toddler having a temper tantrum.
So in my fantasy world... well I don't know. At least, in my fantasy world, he could stay a little longer.