I'm still feeling out-of-sorts with the fandom

Me too. It never was easy, given my falling for John right away, but now, in between the female characters bashing, the John bashing, the Dean woobiefication, the Sam-as-a-girl insertions (which I do like at times, but not always)...*sighs*

I still like the show. I think I'll have more time for writing, though ;)