I started thinking of you from about halfway through the episode, when the dreadful sinking feeling started in my stomach as I connected what John was saying and doing with how they were going to get Dean back from hovering-on-the-brink-of-death. Maybe I'm naturally suspicious; but I didn't think for more than about two seconds that he might be after the demon rather than doing everything to bring Dean back, mainly because it was Sam who accused him of it. Sometimes they're right about each other, but more often they're utterly utterly wrong.
So, yeah, from the moment that John started making plans for demon summoning, I thought it had to be for Dean. And the gun was never going to be enough. I get the feeling that, even when he was negotiating so fearlessly in the basement he knew it wasn't going to be enough, but he tried it just because he wasn't ready to quit on his mission any more than he was on his son.
Whatever it was he whispered to Dean, it was a passing on of the responsibility, both for the hunt and for the family. And he did make the best attempt at saying a proper goodbye and speaking all the unspoken things to Dean. At that moment he was very much the favoured son.
I think my favourite moment of the show was when Dean realised the truth of how he'd become what he'd spent his life hunting, if he took his refusal to give up beyond a certain point. It is one of the things I like about the show; its capacity to embrace that kind of shade of grey. The monsters have motivations too, and they could so easily be us, if we let them in.
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I started thinking of you from about halfway through the episode, when the dreadful sinking feeling started in my stomach as I connected what John was saying and doing with how they were going to get Dean back from hovering-on-the-brink-of-death. Maybe I'm naturally suspicious; but I didn't think for more than about two seconds that he might be after the demon rather than doing everything to bring Dean back, mainly because it was Sam who accused him of it. Sometimes they're right about each other, but more often they're utterly utterly wrong.
So, yeah, from the moment that John started making plans for demon summoning, I thought it had to be for Dean. And the gun was never going to be enough. I get the feeling that, even when he was negotiating so fearlessly in the basement he knew it wasn't going to be enough, but he tried it just because he wasn't ready to quit on his mission any more than he was on his son.
Whatever it was he whispered to Dean, it was a passing on of the responsibility, both for the hunt and for the family. And he did make the best attempt at saying a proper goodbye and speaking all the unspoken things to Dean. At that moment he was very much the favoured son.
I think my favourite moment of the show was when Dean realised the truth of how he'd become what he'd spent his life hunting, if he took his refusal to give up beyond a certain point. It is one of the things I like about the show; its capacity to embrace that kind of shade of grey. The monsters have motivations too, and they could so easily be us, if we let them in.